So if you are a regular reader of the J-Blog, the very last thing you read is that I was going to make a concerted effort to blog every day, and to focus in on how every day things are going in my life, how spiritual the every day mundane things could be.
That was on April 25.
The truth is, that's pretty symbolic of the whole season of life I was in for about a month there. I was really dedicated to writing out some disciplines, some daily activities I was going to do each and every day. But the funny thing was, as soon as a discipline or activity made it on the list, I stopped doing it. Even before I wrote it down, I had been in a pretty good habit of waking up every day and reading the daily lectionary, offering a few prayers up, and connecting with God each day. Then I wrote down that I was going to continue doing that, and it immediately stopped. How about that?
My spiritual director and I tried to get at the bottom of why that was happening, and truthfully couldn't come up with an answer. For a little while there, I held on to a few values, but did absolutely nothing about them in terms of living them out. It's like I wanted to look good, without actually doing any good. I'm sure no one out there knows what that's like.
So what else has been going on? I've been living into the media pastor side of the job a lot lately. We filmed the first episode of the first youtube series that Westminster is going to premier in the fall (I have three that we're working on!), and my goodness am I pumped about it. One of my goals this week is to work on a few previews, so maybe when those are up I'll post them here. We also got a drone to capture some really awesome footage of the church. I then promptly crashed that drone into the church. It was quickly recovered however, so no harm, no foul.
We're wrapping up the days in Veritas, with only three left to go. This is always a bitter sweet thing for me. On the one hand, I'll absolutely miss the kids, particularly this group of seniors. But on the other hand, I'll have my Wednesday nights back for the summer, which as a father means more to me now than it ever did. It also means that I get the whole summer to work on a few projects on the media side of things, so that when school does start back up again in the fall hopefully we'll have a lot of fresh content to put out there.
For now though, best to step away and get to reading. I have a huge reading list that I want to work through, some stuff for work (youth ministry, and also marriage counseling) and some stuff for me. Maybe book reviews should come back to the J-Blog? That's not such a bad idea. But first, I must get to reading.